Written over time in both the U.S. and Romania, "So Hard to Let Go" holds the tension of being present where I am while also missing people who I'm not with.
I was inspired to write this song through the blessing of serving with a non-profit called Outstretched Hands of Romania. This music video helps tell more of the story.
I also found inspiration in discovering that Iceland is a rare place where you can touch two continents at once. Scientists think that Iceland was formed by continental plates pulling apart and deep magma coming up. This has become a powerful analogy for me of something new and beautiful forming amidst feeling torn.
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I remember writing my first songs in third or fourth grade at my grandma's house, typing them on her computer. They were about choosing joy and not being afraid to live life. Unfortunately, things got worse in my struggles with anxiety before they got better. Yet, singing and video-making became vital outlets for me in high school where God helped me process emotions and questions, as well as develop skills I am using today.
Since that time, I have been a videographer, a songwriter, a lover of the Romanian and Spanish languages (though still very intermediate), a graduate student, an occasional worship leader, but most of all, a person who knows I am only alive because of Jesus and His love for me.
A big part of my heart is in Romania with the children I have met and the dear friends I've served alongside as a missionary, and that is why I would like all of the profit from my album "Giving up Control" to be donated to Outstretched Hands of Romania. Every album purchase or stream goes toward sharing the love and message of Jesus in tangible ways with children and teens. Thank you for being with me in this journey, and I hope these songs let you taste the peace of God. There is more to come!
"The very time in my life I didn’t think I could walk through,
let me walk through it now by your side.
The very unseen riptide I didn’t think I could talk through,
may you find me a place to confide.
Because lonely is staggering
and silent is poison
and it takes three to conquer a lie.
Your dark does not shock me.
Be brave. Let your heart see
the light. You’ve got nothing to hide."
- Abbie Werner